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Journal Entry 19 JAN 2021

 Dear Chris,

I’ve been watching a show called Call the Midwife. As you can imagine lots of newborns. 

Tomorrow our son turns 18!

I try to recall every memory of his life and fail. 

I do remember bringing him home and his wavering cry. I also remember the smell of that very little person, I think of it as a salty smell. 

Later he smelled of lavender baby wash. That one always kicks my in the cry box when I smell it. 

Tonight he is our little boy for the last time. 

Tomorrow he is a man.


Be well

I will continue to live until I am alive again. 

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