Journal Entry - 02 FEB 2021 - A trip to Mushroom Land

 Dear Chris,

Last Friday I was feeling very low, I dont have any reason for this but I decided to call in sick to work because I could not deal with helping other people with their insurance problems.

About 1030am I got the email that I was covid free but still feeling fatigued. 

I tried to take a nap but this did not work. 

At 1pm I took what remained of the magic mushrooms (2.4 grams) and added lemon juice to it and laid back down for it do its break down the structure of the mushrooms. (look up lemon tek)

I had taken the mushrooms before and felt that they just got me high and I was expecting pretty much the same. No hallucinations, just high.

I added a little hot water to the lemon mushroom stuff and drank it like a tea. I really don"t like the flavor of the Golden Teacher mushrooms and chased my tea with a cookie and a little milk.

The prior mushroom experiences were like I said, a mild high and I was watching TV shows on Netflix. This time I would not watch any media and close my eyes. This made all the difference. 

I can recall a few things about my mushroom adventure.

Full body tingles. Occasional orgasmic pulses that came as single throbs and also full body and once every 3 to 5 min.

I saw things from backstage left and while I could see what was happening I could also not see what was happening on the stage.

I know that people have visions of spirit animals, I had a guardian animal, It was an owl. I never got a good clean look at said animal be I knew it was an owl and it was watching over me, and I recalled various times that I had seen owls throughout my life. Was this the sane owl?

There is a large clock near my bed and it did not keep good time and this always made me laugh.

There was another cause for laughs, every time I saw a place in my life where I knew that I was in contradiction to my self I laughed.

I did try to fall asleep a few times but this was not going to happen as things were too busy.

I also recall that the were a few times that sound played a very strong roll in the experience, I recall clear short full bodied audio that whizzed near by. (think THX big sound)

I can also recall being in a situation where I was laughing and thinking about you and having a sad emotion and leaning into this feeling and crying out with a guttural moan of grief.

I wanted to picture things that I wanted to be apart of the experience but I was not able to do so. (imagine a person you want to see when you close your eyes and that control was not there.) 

I grew tired of the lack of control and again I tried to sleep it off but this was not to be.

I did not have a bad trip, but I can also say I did not have an educational trip, something that I really wanted.